Feel not as good as I expected because I thought I would enjoy my 10-days-without-concerns but I had too much rest. It is very boring to waste time doing nothing. I want go back to my work but can do this only on 10th of May... wait for it

It was the best weekends I ever had during last three weeks))) I'm relaxed and calm and feel very good)) Yesterday we (I and my friend) visited cinema and watched Fast Five)) I adore Vin Diesel and that movie I liked too))) I feel I'am alive)))

with best regards))

I like my dairy new design )) It is rather cold and soft at the same time) I always liked colors like these ones.

But the story I wanted to tell isn't about colors and my attitude to it. This story is about my world.
Little girl wakes up early in the morning and likes to spend time before breakfast near the river admiring sun reflection on the water surface and watching little fishes bustling about among rocks and grass in the river stream. She smiles and there are no sad ideas or problems in her pretty little head. She is charmed by the world and believes that every day will be happy and sunny. I take her hand and we walk along river bank and I tell her fairy-tales about other worlds and different creatures. And these stories are kind. My little princess is again with me) Her eyes are shining and she wants more stories and she is laughing because she is only little child and she is supposed to laugh and ask questions about everything she sees feels and touches. I love her so much that all words in the whole world are just fade away not describing what I feel right now. I look at her and ask - Where have you been so long? Why did you return only now?
She looks at me and her eyes are still smiling. She keeps silence and I understand that I won't hear any answer. Because all words and all explanations are useless. She is here with me and it's the most important thing in my life.
Nothing is important except little girl looking into my soul though my eyes and smiling to me with a smile of a God.

It is so sunny outdoor and I feel happy because my God loves me) He always did)
Be happy)

I feel angry. I can’t stand pondering over my past because I still feel pain. It is like a scar. When you look at it you remember that time you have got it. It is not good. Living in past is never good. It is like stone on your neck that pulls you down to the bottom of fear, despair and diffidence. But what I can do? I try but nothing more because I don’t know the way to get over this difficulty. I thought I am strong enough and can forget anything but I was wrong. I wait for new events in my life… My Life